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My Parents Sold the 80 Acres Grandpa Promised Us to Pay for My Sister\u2019s Wedding, but I Refused to Give Up on His Land<\/p>\n
Between the Roast and the Pie<\/strong><\/p>\n Mom told me at Sunday dinner, between the roast and the pie.<\/p>\n \u201cWe sold Grandpa\u2019s ground to Vern Akers.\u201d<\/p>\n She said it the way you\u2019d say the weather was turning. Like it was something that had already happened somewhere else, to somebody else. She was cutting the roast while she said it. She didn\u2019t stop cutting.<\/p>\n I had come straight off a night shift at the care center in Creston. Twelve hours. I hadn\u2019t slept. I still had my name badge clipped to my scrub top, and I still smelled like hand sanitizer and the lotion we use on the residents\u2019 heels.<\/p>\n I set my fork down.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n \u201cWhat?\u201d I said.<\/p>\n \u201cThe eighty,\u201d Mom said. \u201cGrandpa\u2019s eighty. Vern made a good offer. We closed on Friday.\u201d<\/p>\n Across the table, my sister Brittany looked down at her plate. She was twenty-six. She had her blonde hair pulled back with a clip, and she was wearing the engagement ring her fianc\u00e9, Tanner, had given her at Christmas. It caught the light from the dining room window every time she moved her hand.<\/p>\n She didn\u2019t look at me.<\/p>\n \u201cBrittany\u2019s getting married at Okoboji,\u201d Mom said. \u201cA real wedding. Right on the lake. At the Inn. With a tent on the lawn and a band from Des Moines.\u201d<\/p>\n She said it like it was the best news in the world. Then she passed me the mashed potatoes.<\/p>\n Grandpa Earl had been gone four months.<\/p>\n He died in October, in the hospice room at Greater Regional in Creston, with the window open so he could hear the combines. He was eighty-seven. He\u2019d farmed that ground since 1956. He\u2019d been born in the farmhouse on it.<\/p>\n Every summer of my life, he walked my sister and me down to the pond on the back corner of that eighty with two cane poles.<\/p>\n The pond was nothing special to anybody else. Maybe an acre of water, in a low spot between two hills, with a dam at one end that Grandpa built with a borrowed dozer in 1971. Cattails along the dam. A big cottonwood on the north bank. Bluegill and bullheads and a few largemouth bass that Grandpa stocked himself from a bucket.<\/p>\n He\u2019d bait our hooks with nightcrawlers from the coffee can. He\u2019d set us on the bank on overturned five-gallon buckets. He\u2019d sit between us on his own bucket with his seed cap pushed back, and he\u2019d wait.<\/p>\n \u201cThis is for you girls,\u201d he\u2019d say. \u201cBoth of you. Someday.\u201d<\/p>\n I believed him. Brittany believed him. We\u2019d grown up believing him.<\/p>\n But it turned out the will left the eighty to Mom and Dad outright. Not to us. To them. I found out at the lawyer\u2019s office in Creston in November, sitting in a plastic chair while a man in a gray suit read it out loud.<\/p>\n To my daughter, Sheryl Kessler Morgan, and her husband, Roger Morgan, all my real estate.<\/p>\n Grandpa Earl was Mom\u2019s father. So that was that. The sale was legal. There was nobody to call.<\/p>\n Dad wouldn\u2019t look at me.<\/p>\n He sat at the end of the table in his good Sunday shirt and kept buttering the same roll. Over and over. He\u2019d buttered it three times already. It was falling apart in his hands.<\/p>\n \u201cYour sister only gets one wedding, Jess,\u201d he said to the roll.<\/p>\n I looked at Brittany. She was still looking at her plate.<\/p>\n \u201cBrit?\u201d I said.<\/p>\n She didn\u2019t answer.<\/p>\n Mom reached across the table and patted my hand. She smiled at me. The smile she gave me my whole life, whenever something went wrong and she needed it to be okay.<\/p>\n \u201cYou were always fine, Jessie,\u201d she said. \u201cYou\u2019ll be fine.\u201d<\/p>\n Then she got up and went to get the pie.<\/p>\n Chapter Two: Always Fine<\/p>\n I was twenty-nine that winter.<\/p>\n I want you to understand where I was in my life, so you understand what \u201calways fine\u201d meant.<\/p>\n I was working three jobs to get through nursing school at Southwestern Community College in Creston.<\/p>\n Nights as an aide at the care center. Ten p.m. to six a.m., four nights a week. Seventeen dollars an hour, turning residents, changing briefs, sitting with the ones who couldn\u2019t sleep.<\/p>\n Saturdays at the Corner Caf\u00e9 on Main Street. Six in the morning to two in the afternoon. Biscuits and gravy and refills for farmers who tipped in quarters.<\/p>\n Sunday mornings, cleaning the Iowa State Bank in town. Vacuuming, emptying wastebaskets, wiping fingerprints off the glass doors. Two hours, forty dollars, cash.<\/p>\n I was going to class in between. I was sleeping maybe five hours a night. I had a 2009 Chevy Malibu with two hundred and eleven thousand miles on it and a heater that only worked on high.<\/p>\n I didn\u2019t live at home. I hadn\u2019t since I was nineteen. I rented a one-bedroom apartment above the hardware store in Creston for five hundred and twenty a month.<\/p>\n I\u2019d been paying my own way since I was nineteen. My own tuition. My own car insurance. My own everything.<\/p>\n Nobody ever asked me how I was doing. Not really. Because I was always fine.<\/p>\n Brittany was different. Brittany was the baby.<\/p>\n She went to Iowa State. Mom and Dad paid. She had a sorority and a meal plan and a car they bought her for graduation. When she moved to Des Moines after college and got a job in marketing at an insurance company, Dad co-signed her apartment lease.<\/p>\n I\u2019m not saying that to be bitter. I\u2019m saying it because it\u2019s true. She was the baby, and I was the one who was fine.<\/p>\n That\u2019s just how it was in our family. Some people are the ones who need things. Some people are the ones who are fine.<\/p>\n The wedding cost sixty thousand dollars.<\/p>\n I found that out later. Brittany told me. Sixty thousand dollars for one Saturday in June at the Inn at Okoboji. The tent on the lawn. The band from Des Moines. Two hundred guests. Prime rib and salmon. An open bar. A florist from Spirit Lake who did the whole tent in white hydrangeas.<\/p>\n The rest of the money went to a new truck for Dad. A 2024 Ram 2500, black, with leather seats.<\/p>\n And a pontoon. A twenty-two-foot Bennington, tan and silver, that Dad kept on a lift at a marina on West Okoboji.<\/p>\n I stood up at that wedding in a dress I paid for myself.<\/p>\n A sage green bridesmaid dress from a bridal shop in Des Moines. One hundred and eighty-nine dollars. I paid for it out of my caf\u00e9 tips. I drove up to the fitting on my one day off and drove back the same night for my shift.<\/p>\n I stood at the front of the tent on the lawn with the other four bridesmaids and held a bouquet of white hydrangeas. I watched my little sister walk down the aisle on our dad\u2019s arm in a dress that cost more than my car.<\/p>\n I smiled in every picture.<\/p>\n I want you to know that. Every single one. If you look at Brittany\u2019s wedding album, you\u2019ll see me smiling in all of them.<\/p>\n I know how to smile.<\/p>\n Then I drove home. Four hours, in the dark, in my Malibu with the heater on high in June because the air conditioner was broken too.<\/p>\n I got back to my apartment above the hardware store at two in the morning. I hung up my sage green dress in the closet.<\/p>\n And I sat down at my kitchen table and studied for a pharmacology test.<\/p>\n Beta blockers. ACE inhibitors. Calcium channel blockers. I made flash cards until the sun came up.<\/p>\n I got a ninety-four.<\/p>\n Chapter Three: The Boards<\/p>\n I passed my boards a year and a half later.<\/p>\n The NCLEX. Seventy-five questions, and if you get them right enough, the computer shuts off early. Mine shut off at seventy-five. I sat there in the testing center in Des Moines staring at a blank screen, sure I\u2019d failed.<\/p>\n I hadn\u2019t. I got the email two days later. I was in the parking lot of the care center, about to start my last night shift. I read it four times.<\/p>\n Then I sat in my Malibu and cried for twenty minutes.<\/p>\n Then I went inside and worked my shift.<\/p>\n Nobody from my family came to my pinning ceremony.<\/p>\n That\u2019s the nursing school graduation. They give you a pin and you say the Nightingale Pledge with a little candle. It was on a Thursday night in May in the Southwestern auditorium.<\/p>\n Mom said she had a church thing. Dad said he had to get the pontoon ready for Memorial Day. Brittany was in Des Moines. She texted me a string of heart emojis and a picture of a cake.<\/p>\n Grandpa Earl would have come. He\u2019d have sat in the front row in his good seed cap. He\u2019d have clapped too loud.<\/p>\n I said the Nightingale Pledge by myself. Then I went to the Pizza Ranch with three girls from my class and their families.<\/p>\n I took a job on the medical floor at the hospital in Corning. Rosary Hospital. Twenty-two beds, twelve-hour shifts, three days a week.<\/p>\n Twenty-nine dollars an hour to start.<\/p>\n I quit the caf\u00e9. I quit the bank. I quit the care center. For the first time since I was nineteen, I had one job.<\/p>\n I didn\u2019t buy one thing that first year.<\/p>\n No new car. The Malibu was still running, mostly. No trip. No new furniture. No new clothes except scrubs.<\/p>\n I put every dollar I didn\u2019t need for rent and food into a savings account at the Iowa State Bank. The same bank I used to clean on Sunday mornings.<\/p>\n By the end of that first year, I\u2019d saved fourteen thousand dollars.<\/p>\n People asked me what it was for. Coworkers. My friend Kayla from nursing school.<\/p>\n \u201cA down payment?\u201d Kayla asked. \u201cOn a house?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cSomething like that,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n I didn\u2019t tell anybody. Not even Kayla.<\/p>\n Because every time I drove past Grandpa\u2019s old eighty on the gravel road to Corning, I looked at it. And every time, I saw the pond on the back corner. And the cottonwood. And the dam he built with a borrowed dozer.<\/p>\n And I thought about two girls on overturned buckets, with cane poles.<\/p>\n This is for you girls. Both of you. Someday.<\/p>\n Vern Akers hadn\u2019t done anything with it.<\/p>\n That\u2019s what I noticed. Two years after he bought it, and he hadn\u2019t plowed it up or built anything. He\u2019d fenced it in with his own pasture and turned his Angus cows out on it. That was all.<\/p>\n The cows had found the pond, of course. They\u2019d tramped the banks bare. Mud all the way around. The cattails along the dam were half gone. The water was brown.<\/p>\n But the cottonwood was still there. And the dam was still there.<\/p>\n And the pond was still there.<\/p>\n Chapter Four: Vern\u2019s Place<\/p>\n I drove out the gravel to Vern\u2019s place on a Tuesday in February. My day off.<\/p>\n He lives about a mile south of Grandpa\u2019s old eighty, in a white farmhouse with a red barn and a windbreak of cedars on the north side. He\u2019s lived there his whole life. He farmed next to Grandpa Earl for forty years.<\/p>\n He was seventy. A widower. His wife, Ardis, died of cancer the same year as Grandpa. They never had children.<\/p>\n I\u2019d known Vern my whole life. He came to every one of Grandpa\u2019s birthday parties. He sat in the second row at Grandpa\u2019s funeral. He had a white beard and wore bib overalls and a seed cap, and he had a way of saying very little that made you feel like he\u2019d said a lot.<\/p>\n He answered the door in his stocking feet. He had a cup of coffee in one hand and his reading glasses pushed up on his forehead.<\/p>\n \u201cJessie Morgan,\u201d he said. He looked surprised. \u201cCome in. It\u2019s cold.\u201d<\/p>\n He sat me down at his kitchen table. He poured me a cup of coffee without asking. It was strong enough to stand a spoon in.<\/p>\n \u201cHow\u2019s nursing?\u201d he asked.<\/p>\n \u201cGood. Hard. Good.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cEarl would be proud,\u201d Vern said. \u201cHe used to tell me you\u2019d be a nurse someday. Since you were about eight. Said you were the only one in the family who could stand the sight of blood.\u201d<\/p>\n I laughed. It came out shaky.<\/p>\n I didn\u2019t know how to start. So I just said it.<\/p>\n \u201cVern,\u201d I said. \u201cI want to buy the pond.\u201d<\/p>\n He set his coffee cup down.<\/p>\n \u201cThe two acres around it,\u201d I said. \u201cWith the pond and the cottonwood and the dam. That\u2019s all. I don\u2019t want the rest. Just the pond.\u201d<\/p>\n I took a folded piece of paper out of my coat pocket. A cashier\u2019s check from the Iowa State Bank. I\u2019d gotten it that morning. I slid it across the table to him.<\/p>\n \u201cI have fourteen thousand dollars,\u201d I said. \u201cI know that\u2019s probably not enough. I know what ground\u2019s going for. But I can make payments on the rest. Whatever you want.\u201d<\/p>\n Vern didn\u2019t touch the check.<\/p>\n He was quiet a long time. He looked out the kitchen window at his barn. A clock was ticking somewhere in the living room. His old dog, a black lab with a gray face, came over and put its head on my knee.<\/p>\n \u201cI told your dad that price was low,\u201d Vern said finally.<\/p>\n I looked at him.<\/p>\n \u201cWhen he sold me the eighty,\u201d Vern said. \u201cI told him. Roger, I said, ground\u2019s going for more than this. You could get six, seven thousand an acre if you list it. But he didn\u2019t want to list it. He wanted it done fast.\u201d He rubbed his beard. \u201cHe wanted it done before the deposit was due.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThe deposit?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cOn the wedding,\u201d Vern said. \u201cThe place at Okoboji. He told me they needed thirty thousand by the end of February, or they\u2019d lose the date.\u201d<\/p>\n I sat there with my coffee getting cold.<\/p>\n I\u2019d always thought they sold the land and then decided on the wedding. That it was a windfall. A gift.<\/p>\n But that\u2019s not what happened. They\u2019d booked the wedding first. They\u2019d put down a deposit they didn\u2019t have. And then they\u2019d sold Grandpa\u2019s eighty, at a discount, to pay for it.<\/p>\n Four months after he died.<\/p>\n \u201cHow much did you pay?\u201d I asked. \u201cPer acre?\u201d<\/p>\n Vern looked at me for a long time.<\/p>\n \u201cFour thousand, three hundred and seventy-five,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n Then he picked up a pencil from the cup on the table. He took a seed company notepad off the counter. He wrote a number on it and turned it around so I could see.<\/p>\n $4,375.<\/p>\n \u201cThat\u2019s my number,\u201d Vern said. \u201cPer acre. What I paid. Not what it\u2019s worth now. What I paid.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cVern\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cTwo acres is eight thousand, seven hundred and fifty,\u201d he said. \u201cYou pay the survey. Should be about twelve hundred, from Dale Wiese\u2019s outfit in Creston. And the filing fees at the courthouse.\u201d He slid the cashier\u2019s check back across the table to me. \u201cYou keep the rest of that. You\u2019ll need it.\u201d<\/p>\n I couldn\u2019t speak.<\/p>\n \u201cAnd I\u2019ll help with the dock,\u201d Vern said.<\/p>\n \u201cWhy?\u201d I finally managed.<\/p>\n Vern picked up his coffee cup again. He held it in both hands and looked into it.<\/p>\n \u201cEarl and me used to fish that pond,\u201d he said. \u201cOn Sunday afternoons. After church. For forty years. Before you girls were born, and after.\u201d He paused. \u201cHe\u2019d sit on one side and I\u2019d sit on the other, and we wouldn\u2019t say ten words between us. Best afternoons of my life.\u201d<\/p>\n He looked up at me.<\/p>\n \u201cHe told me about the cane poles,\u201d Vern said. \u201cAbout you girls. He said, Vern, that pond is the only thing I\u2019ve got that\u2019s worth anything. The rest is just dirt.\u201d He set the cup down. \u201cI figure I owe him.\u201d<\/p>\n Chapter Five: The Dock<\/p>\n The survey took three weeks. Dale Wiese came out with his son and a GPS unit on a pole and walked the pond in the snow, planting little orange flags.<\/p>\n Two point zero one acres. One acre of water, one acre of bank. The dam, the cottonwood, and a little strip of hillside on the north side where the grass was tall.<\/p>\n The closing was at the abstract office in Bedford on a Friday morning in March. Vern signed the warranty deed. I signed a check for eight thousand, seven hundred and fifty dollars. The lady at the abstract office stamped it and smiled at us.<\/p>\n \u201cCongratulations,\u201d she said. \u201cYou\u2019re a landowner.\u201d<\/p>\n I drove out to the pond that afternoon. I parked my Malibu on Vern\u2019s field road and walked down through his pasture, through the snow, to the edge of the water.<\/p>\n It was still half frozen. Gray ice in the middle, black water around the edges. The cottonwood was bare. The cattails along the dam were brown and broken.<\/p>\n I stood there in my Carhartt coat and my boots for a long time.<\/p>\n I didn\u2019t cry. I thought I would. But I just stood there, breathing, and looked at it.<\/p>\n Mine.<\/p>\n We drove four treated posts into the muck the last week of March.<\/p>\n Vern brought a post driver on the back of his skid loader. A big steel weight on a slide. He set it on top of each post, and I held the post steady, and he dropped the weight. Bang. Bang. Bang. Each post went six feet into the mud at the edge of the pond.<\/p>\n He cut the boards in his shop. Treated two-by-sixes. He measured everything twice. He brought them down in the bed of his truck.<\/p>\n I nailed them.<\/p>\n Every single one. With Grandpa\u2019s old hammer, the one with the wooden handle worn smooth from fifty years of his hand. Vern had found it in the shed when he bought the eighty. He gave it to me the day we closed.<\/p>\n It took us three Saturdays. When it was done, it was a dock. Not a fancy one. Twelve feet long, four feet wide, sticking out into the water from the north bank, under the cottonwood.<\/p>\n Vern stood at the end of it and stomped his boot.<\/p>\n \u201cShe\u2019ll hold,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n \u201cShe\u2019ll hold,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n His cows had tramped most of the bank bare. Two years of Angus walking down to drink had turned it into a mudhole. The cattails Grandpa planted along the dam in 1972 were mostly gone. Just a little stand left at the dam end, maybe twenty stalks.<\/p>\n Vern ran a new fence around my two acres, so his cows couldn\u2019t get back in. He didn\u2019t charge me for it. He said he had wire left over.<\/p>\n Then I started on the cattails.<\/p>\n I dug them from Grandpa\u2019s old stand at the dam end. With a garden spade and a five-gallon bucket. You dig down around the root, which is thick and white and goes sideways under the mud. You lift out a clump. You carry it to the new spot.<\/p>\n I set them along the bank one at a time.<\/p>\n On my knees in the mud.<\/p>\n It took me seven evenings after work. I\u2019d drive out from Corning at seven-thirty, still in my scrubs, change into rubber boots in the Malibu, and dig until dark. By the end, I had cattails along the whole east bank, maybe forty feet, planted every eighteen inches.<\/p>\n My knees were black with mud for a week. My hands were cracked. One of the nurses at work asked if I\u2019d been gardening.<\/p>\n \u201cSort of,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n Then I went home to my apartment above the hardware store. I sat down at the kitchen table. I picked up my phone.<\/p>\n I opened my messages and scrolled down to Brittany.<\/p>\n The last thing she\u2019d texted me was a string of heart emojis. For my pinning. A year and a half ago.<\/p>\n I typed for a long time. Deleted it. Typed again. Deleted it.<\/p>\n Finally, I just wrote:<\/p>\n Grandpa\u2019s pond. Saturday evening. Bring nothing.<\/p>\n I hit send before I could stop myself.<\/p>\n We hadn\u2019t really talked since the wedding.<\/p>\n Not really. A text on birthdays. A phone call at Christmas that lasted four minutes. A photo of her new house in Ankeny that she sent to the family group chat, which I hearted and didn\u2019t comment on.<\/p>\n It wasn\u2019t that we\u2019d had a fight. We\u2019d never fought. That was the thing.<\/p>\n We just didn\u2019t know how to talk to each other anymore.<\/p>\n She wrote back that night. One word.<\/p>\n Okay.<\/p>\n Chapter Six: The Tackle Box<\/p>\n Saturday was a spring evening. The second week of April.<\/p>\n Golden light on the water. Not a breath of wind. The pond was perfectly still, like a mirror, with the cottonwood leafing out on the north bank and its reflection hanging upside down in the water.<\/p>\n The cattails I\u2019d planted were coming up green. Little spears poking out of the mud. A redwing blackbird was sitting on one of the old stalks at the dam end, singing.<\/p>\n I sat at the end of the new dock in my green flannel and a ball cap. My boots hanging over the edge. Grandpa\u2019s cane pole across my lap.<\/p>\n I\u2019d found the cane poles in the corner of the machine shed when Vern bought the eighty. He\u2019d saved them. Two of them, twelve feet long, with the line wrapped around the end and a little red and white bobber still clipped on each one.<\/p>\n One had a strip of white tape around the bottom with JESS written on it in Grandpa\u2019s handwriting. The other said BRIT.<\/p>\n I was holding mine.<\/p>\n Hers was lying on the dock beside me.<\/p>\n I heard a truck on the field road. Then a door. Then footsteps coming down through Vern\u2019s pasture. Slow, heavy steps.<\/p>\n Vern came down the hill in his overalls and his seed cap. He was carrying something in one hand. An old metal tackle box, green, with rust around the hinges.<\/p>\n He came out onto the dock. It held. He stopped beside me.<\/p>\n \u201cFound this in the shed,\u201d he said. \u201cBack on a shelf behind the grease guns. Took me a while to get the lid loose.\u201d He set it down on the dock next to me. \u201cIt was Earl\u2019s.\u201d<\/p>\n I looked at it. I knew it. I\u2019d seen it a hundred times. Every summer. Grandpa would set it between his bucket and mine, and open it, and take out the nightcrawlers and the extra hooks and the little lead sinkers.<\/p>\n My hand moved toward the latch.<\/p>\n Then I stopped.<\/p>\n \u201cNot yet,\u201d I said. \u201cI want to wait for Brit.\u201d<\/p>\n Vern nodded. Like that was the right answer.<\/p>\n \u201cI\u2019ll get on back up the hill,\u201d he said. \u201cGive you girls some room.\u201d<\/p>\n He went back up through the pasture. Slowly. I watched him go. At the top of the hill he stopped by his truck and stood there, looking down at the pond, with his hands in the pockets of his overalls.<\/p>\n Then he got in and drove away.<\/p>\n I sat there alone at the end of the dock.<\/p>\n The light was getting lower. Gold turning to orange. The redwing blackbird kept singing. A frog started up somewhere in the cattails.<\/p>\n I didn\u2019t know if she\u2019d come. Okay could mean anything. Okay could mean I\u2019ll come. Okay could mean I got your message.<\/p>\n I checked my phone. Six-forty.<\/p>\n Then I heard a car on the gravel.<\/p>\n A few minutes later, my sister walked down through the grass.<\/p>\n She came slowly. She was wearing jeans and a light jacket and white sneakers that she probably bought just for this, because Brittany never owned a pair of shoes she could get muddy. Her blonde hair was down. No makeup.<\/p>\n She looked older than she did at the wedding. Tired.<\/p>\n She stopped at the edge of the dock.<\/p>\n She didn\u2019t come out on it. She didn\u2019t sit.<\/p>\n She looked at the cattails a long time. At the new ones I\u2019d planted along the east bank, coming up green in the mud. At the old stand at the dam end. At the cottonwood. At the cane pole lying on the dock with her name on the tape.<\/p>\n Then she said, \u201cJess, I need to tell you what Mom told me the week before my wedding.\u201d<\/p>\n Chapter Seven: What Mom Said<\/p>\n I set my cane pole down across my knees.<\/p>\n \u201cOkay,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n Brittany didn\u2019t move. She stood at the edge of the dock with her arms wrapped around herself, even though it wasn\u2019t cold.<\/p>\n \u201cCan I sit?\u201d she asked.<\/p>\n \u201cIt\u2019s your dock too.\u201d<\/p>\n She looked at me sharply. Then she walked out to the end, carefully, like she wasn\u2019t sure it would hold her. She sat down next to me. Not close. A foot of space between us.<\/p>\n She looked at the water.<\/p>\n \u201cThe Saturday before the wedding,\u201d she said, \u201cMom and I drove up to Okoboji to check on the tent. Just the two of us. Dad stayed home.\u201d<\/p>\n I didn\u2019t say anything.<\/p>\n \u201cAnd we were sitting on the dock at the Inn, after,\u201d she said. \u201cDrinking wine. Looking at the lake. And Mom got kind of drunk. You know how she gets on two glasses.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cAnd she started talking about Grandpa.\u201d Brittany\u2019s voice was very quiet. \u201cAbout the will.\u201d<\/p>\n The frog in the cattails stopped.<\/p>\n \u201cShe said Grandpa had a will,\u201d Brittany said. \u201cAn old one. From 2015. After Grandma died. She said it left the eighty to us. To you and me. Fifty-fifty.\u201d<\/p>\n I went very still.<\/p>\n \u201cShe said she found it in his desk drawer,\u201d Brittany said. \u201cLast summer. When he was on hospice. When he was on the morphine.\u201d She swallowed. \u201cAnd she said she and Dad took him to the lawyer in Creston in August. To make a new one.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cAugust,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n \u201cTwo months before he died,\u201d Brittany said. \u201cWhen he couldn\u2019t remember what day it was. When he called you Sheryl half the time and asked for Grandma.\u201d<\/p>\n I put my hand flat on the boards of the dock. I needed to touch something solid.<\/p>\n \u201cShe said he signed it,\u201d Brittany said. \u201cShe said the lawyer asked him if he understood, and he said yes. She said it was all legal.\u201d Her voice cracked. \u201cShe said she had to do it. She said she never got a real wedding, and she wasn\u2019t going to let me miss mine.\u201d<\/p>\n I closed my eyes.<\/p>\n Mom and Dad got married at the Taylor County Courthouse in 1993. On a Tuesday. Mom was pregnant with me. Grandpa Earl was so angry he didn\u2019t come. They didn\u2019t speak for a year.<\/p>\n I knew that story. Everybody in our family knew it. Nobody ever talked about it.<\/p>\n \u201cAnd then,\u201d Brittany said. She stopped. She wiped her eyes with her sleeve.<\/p>\n \u201cAnd then what, Brit?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cAnd then she said, \u2018Don\u2019t tell Jess. Jess will be fine. Jess is always fine.\u2019\u201d<\/p>\n We sat there on the dock for a long time without saying anything.<\/p>\n The sun was almost down now. The light on the water was red. The redwing blackbird had stopped singing. Somewhere far off, one of Vern\u2019s cows bawled.<\/p>\n \u201cI almost called it off,\u201d Brittany said. \u201cThe wedding. That night. I lay in bed at the Inn and I couldn\u2019t breathe. I almost called you. I had my phone in my hand. I had your name up.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWhy didn\u2019t you?\u201d<\/p>\n She shook her head.<\/p>\n \u201cBecause there were two hundred people coming,\u201d she said. \u201cBecause Tanner\u2019s whole family drove from Nebraska. Because the deposit was paid and the band was booked and the flowers were ordered. Because Mom was so happy.\u201d She was crying now. \u201cBecause I was a coward, Jess. That\u2019s why.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cAnd then you stood up there,\u201d Brittany said. \u201cIn that sage dress. And you smiled. In every single picture. And I kept looking at you and thinking, she doesn\u2019t know. She doesn\u2019t know I\u2019m standing here in a dress that was paid for with her half of Grandpa\u2019s land.\u201d<\/p>\n She put her face in her hands.<\/p>\n \u201cI couldn\u2019t look at you,\u201d she said. \u201cFor two years. Every time I saw your name on my phone, I felt sick. Every time Mom said \u2018Jess is fine,\u2019 I wanted to throw up.\u201d<\/p>\n I didn\u2019t say anything for a long time.<\/p>\n I wanted to be angry. I want to be honest about that. Part of me was. Part of me wanted to stand up and walk off that dock and drive away and never come back.<\/p>\n But I looked at my little sister. Twenty-eight years old. Crying into her hands on Grandpa\u2019s pond in her brand-new white sneakers.<\/p>\n And I remembered her at six. Sitting on an overturned bucket on that bank, crying because a bluegill swallowed her hook. Grandpa kneeling down beside her to get it out. Me holding her hand.<\/p>\n \u201cBrit,\u201d I said. \u201cLook at me.\u201d<\/p>\n She lifted her face.<\/p>\n \u201cYou were twenty-six,\u201d I said. \u201cMom got you drunk on a dock a week before your wedding and dumped all of that on you. That\u2019s not on you. That\u2019s on her.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI could have told you.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cYeah,\u201d I said. \u201cYou could have.\u201d<\/p>\n She flinched.<\/p>\n \u201cBut you\u2019re telling me now,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n Chapter Eight: The Lawyer<\/p>\n I called a lawyer on Monday.<\/p>\n I knew what she was going to say before I even dialed. But I needed to hear it.<\/p>\n Her name was Margaret Pohl. She did estate law in Creston. Not the same lawyer Mom and Dad took Grandpa to. A different one. A gray-haired woman in her sixties who\u2019d been doing wills and probate in Union County for thirty-five years.<\/p>\n I met her in her office above the bank on a Wednesday afternoon. I brought Brittany. She drove down from Ankeny and took a personal day.<\/p>\n We told her everything.<\/p>\n Margaret listened without interrupting. When we were done, she took off her reading glasses and set them on her desk.<\/p>\n \u201cI\u2019m going to be honest with you girls,\u201d she said. \u201cBecause I think you\u2019d want me to be.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cPlease,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n \u201cWhat you\u2019re describing sounds like it could be undue influence,\u201d she said. \u201cA parent with a terminal diagnosis, on hospice, on morphine. Children who benefit from the change, driving him to the lawyer\u2019s office. A prior will that went the other way. If you\u2019d come to me two years ago, I\u2019d have said you had something worth looking at.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cBut,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n \u201cBut,\u201d Margaret said. \u201cIn Iowa, you have a limited time to contest a will. Generally, the later of four months after the second publication of the notice to creditors, or one month after the notice is mailed to you. Did you get a notice in the mail? From the estate?\u201d<\/p>\n I thought about it. I remembered a letter. November. From the lawyer in Creston. I\u2019d opened it at the care center on a break and read it and put it in my locker.<\/p>\n \u201cYes,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n \u201cThen the deadline passed a long time ago,\u201d Margaret said gently. \u201cProbably before the wedding.\u201d<\/p>\n Brittany made a small sound.<\/p>\n \u201cAnd even if you could contest it,\u201d Margaret said, \u201cthe land\u2019s been sold. To a good-faith buyer. Mr. Akers paid a fair, if low, price, and had no knowledge of any of this. A court isn\u2019t going to take the land back from him.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI wouldn\u2019t want them to,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n Margaret looked at me for a long moment.<\/p>\n \u201cThen what do you want?\u201d she asked.<\/p>\n I didn\u2019t know how to answer.<\/p>\n I\u2019d been thinking about it since Saturday night. Lying awake in my apartment above the hardware store.<\/p>\n What did I want? The money? The land? Most of it was gone. The wedding was spent. The truck was being driven. The pontoon was floating on West Okoboji.<\/p>\n I didn\u2019t want to sue my parents. I didn\u2019t want to sit in a courtroom in Creston across a table from my mother.<\/p>\n \u201cI want them to know,\u201d I said finally. \u201cThat we know. Both of us.\u201d<\/p>\n Margaret nodded slowly.<\/p>\n \u201cThat\u2019s not something the law can give you,\u201d she said. \u201cThat\u2019s something you\u2019ll have to do yourselves.\u201d<\/p>\n On the way out, she stopped us at the door.<\/p>\n \u201cThere\u2019s one more thing,\u201d she said. \u201cThe prior will. The 2015 one. You said your mother found it in your grandfather\u2019s desk.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThat\u2019s what she told Brit.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cIf it was properly executed,\u201d Margaret said, \u201cthe lawyer who drew it up may still have a copy in his files. Lawyers are supposed to keep them. It won\u2019t change anything legally now. But you might want to see it.\u201d She paused. \u201cSometimes it helps to see it in writing. What someone actually wanted.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWho would\u2019ve drawn it up?\u201d Brittany asked.<\/p>\n Margaret almost smiled.<\/p>\n \u201cEarl Kessler,\u201d she said. \u201cCame in here in March 2015, about a month after his wife\u2019s funeral. Sat in that chair right there. Wanted to make sure his granddaughters got the pond.\u201d She went to her filing cabinet. \u201cI\u2019ll have to check. But I believe that was me.\u201d<\/p>\n Chapter Nine: In Writing<\/p>\n She found it the next day. She called me at work.<\/p>\n A copy of Grandpa\u2019s 2015 will, in a manila folder in her files. Signed by Earl Kessler. Witnessed by her secretary and the Iowa State Bank teller who came up to notarize it.<\/p>\n She mailed us each a copy. With a letter on her stationery saying she was sorry for our loss, and that she was sorry the copy came too late to matter.<\/p>\n I opened mine in my apartment, sitting at the kitchen table.<\/p>\n It was simple. Four pages. Most of it was about his savings account and his pickup and who got his guns.<\/p>\n But on page two, it said:<\/p>\n I give my farm real estate, consisting of eighty acres in Section 14, Lenox Township, Taylor County, Iowa, to my granddaughters, Jessica Ann Morgan and Brittany Lynn Morgan, in equal shares, as tenants in common.<\/p>\n And then, right under that, in Grandpa\u2019s own handwriting, in the margin, in blue ink, with an arrow pointing to the paragraph:<\/p>\n The pond is the part that counts. Fish together.<\/p>\n I sat there at my kitchen table and read that line twenty times.<\/p>\n Then I called Brittany.<\/p>\n She answered on the first ring. She was crying already. She\u2019d gotten hers too.<\/p>\n \u201cDid you see it?\u201d she said. \u201cThe note? In the margin?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI saw it.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cFish together,\u201d she said. \u201cJess. He wrote fish together.\u201d<\/p>\n We didn\u2019t say anything for a long time. Just breathed on the phone, a hundred miles apart.<\/p>\n \u201cSunday,\u201d I said finally. \u201cMom and Dad\u2019s. Dinner. Both of us.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cBoth of us,\u201d Brittany said.<\/p>\n That Sunday, we drove up to the house together. In my Malibu. Brittany had driven down from Ankeny the night before and slept on my couch above the hardware store.<\/p>\n Mom and Dad live in a split-level on the edge of Lenox. The black Ram 2500 was in the driveway. The pontoon was on a trailer next to the garage, covered with a gray tarp for the season.<\/p>\n We sat in the car for a minute.<\/p>\n \u201cYou okay?\u201d I asked.<\/p>\n \u201cNo,\u201d Brittany said. \u201cYou?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n We got out anyway.<\/p>\n Mom was thrilled to see us. Both girls home on the same Sunday. She hugged us in the doorway. She\u2019d made a roast. She\u2019d made a pie. Cherry, Brittany\u2019s favorite.<\/p>\n Dad was in his recliner with the Twins game on. He got up and hugged us too. He smelled like Old Spice and the cab of a new truck.<\/p>\n We sat down at the dining room table. The same table. Mom carved the roast. Dad buttered a roll.<\/p>\n Then I took the copy of the 2015 will out of my purse. I unfolded it. I laid it on the table, next to the mashed potatoes, turned so they could both read it.<\/p>\n Brittany laid hers down right next to mine.<\/p>\n Chapter Ten: Between the Roast and the Pie<\/p>\n Mom stopped carving.<\/p>\n She looked at the papers. Then at me. Then at Brittany.<\/p>\n Her face went white. Not pale. White. The knife was still in her hand.<\/p>\n Dad leaned forward and read the first page. Then the second. He stopped at the line in the margin. The handwriting in blue ink.<\/p>\n He set down his roll.<\/p>\n \u201cWhere did you get this?\u201d Mom said. Her voice was very quiet.<\/p>\n \u201cMargaret Pohl,\u201d I said. \u201cIn Creston. She drew it up. In 2015. A month after Grandma died.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cJessie\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cBrit told me, Mom,\u201d I said. \u201cWhat you told her. On the dock at Okoboji. The week before the wedding.\u201d<\/p>\n Mom looked at Brittany. Brittany looked back at her. She didn\u2019t look away.<\/p>\n \u201cYou promised,\u201d Mom said.<\/p>\n \u201cI know I did,\u201d Brittany said. \u201cI shouldn\u2019t have.\u201d<\/p>\n The Twins game was still on in the living room. Somebody hit a double. The crowd cheered. Nobody at the table moved.<\/p>\n \u201cIt was legal,\u201d Mom said finally. \u201cThe new will. The lawyer asked him if he understood. He said yes.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cHe thought I was you, Mom,\u201d I said. \u201cIn August. Every time I came in to sit with him on my break, he called me Sheryl. He asked me if I\u2019d brought the potato salad for the threshers. He thought it was 1962.\u201d<\/p>\n Mom didn\u2019t answer.<\/p>\n \u201cI worked nights at the care center,\u201d I said. \u201cI sat with people on morphine for three years. I know what it looks like. You know he didn\u2019t understand.\u201d<\/p>\n Dad hadn\u2019t said a word. He was staring at the margin of the will. At the blue ink.<\/p>\n The pond is the part that counts. Fish together.<\/p>\n \u201cRoger,\u201d Mom said sharply. \u201cSay something.\u201d<\/p>\n Dad looked up. Not at Mom. At me.<\/p>\n \u201cI told her not to,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n Everybody turned and looked at him.<\/p>\n \u201cIn August,\u201d Dad said. His voice was rough. \u201cI told her it wasn\u2019t right. Taking him in like that. I said, Sheryl, he\u2019s not himself. Let it go. The girls should have it.\u201d He swallowed. \u201cShe said if I didn\u2019t drive him, she\u2019d drive him herself.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cRoger!\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cAnd I drove him,\u201d Dad said. \u201cGod help me. I drove him.\u201d<\/p>\n He put his face in his hands. His big farmer\u2019s hands, with the knuckles cracked from forty years of winter.<\/p>\n \u201cAnd then the place at Okoboji wanted thirty thousand,\u201d he said into his hands. \u201cAnd we\u2019d already signed. And I didn\u2019t have thirty thousand. I had the operating note at the bank, a hundred and seventy thousand behind on it, three bad years in a row.\u201d He shook his head. \u201cSo I called Vern. And Vern said it was too low, and I said I don\u2019t care, Vern. Just write the check.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cDad,\u201d Brittany whispered.<\/p>\n \u201cI paid off the operating note,\u201d Dad said. \u201cI paid for the wedding. And I bought a truck and a pontoon, because I told myself I deserved one thing after forty years of eating dirt.\u201d He looked up at me. His eyes were red. \u201cAnd every time I drive that truck past Earl\u2019s eighty, I want to drive it into the ditch.\u201d<\/p>\n Mom stood up. She put the carving knife down on the platter with a clatter.<\/p>\n \u201cYou don\u2019t understand,\u201d she said. \u201cEither of you.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThen tell us,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n She stood there by the table in her Sunday apron. Her hands were shaking.<\/p>\n \u201cI was twenty-one,\u201d she said. \u201cPregnant with you. And my father wouldn\u2019t come to my wedding. He wouldn\u2019t come. To the courthouse. On a Tuesday. He said I\u2019d shamed him.\u201d Her voice cracked. \u201cI didn\u2019t have a dress. I wore my church skirt. Roger\u2019s mother took one picture with a disposable camera. That\u2019s my wedding. One picture.\u201d<\/p>\n She looked at Brittany.<\/p>\n \u201cAnd then he spent twenty-five years walking you girls down to that pond with cane poles,\u201d she said. \u201cTelling you it was all for you someday. His granddaughters. Never me. Never once in my life did he tell me anything was for me.\u201d<\/p>\n Nobody said anything.<\/p>\n \u201cSo when you got engaged, Brit,\u201d Mom said, crying now, \u201cI thought, she\u2019s going to have what I didn\u2019t. She\u2019s going to have a dress and a tent and a band and two hundred people. And I didn\u2019t care where the money came from.\u201d She wiped her eyes with her apron. \u201cI didn\u2019t care. I wanted my baby to have a real wedding.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cAnd Jess?\u201d Brittany said quietly. \u201cWhat did you want for Jess?\u201d<\/p>\n Mom looked at me.<\/p>\n I watched her face. I watched her try to find the answer.<\/p>\n \u201cJess was always fine,\u201d she said finally. Very softly. Like she was just hearing it for the first time.<\/p>\n \u201cNo, Mom,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n I stood up.<\/p>\n \u201cI wasn\u2019t fine,\u201d I said. \u201cI was working three jobs. I slept five hours a night for three years. I drove a car with no heat. I paid for my own bridesmaid dress out of caf\u00e9 tips.\u201d My voice was shaking. \u201cI wasn\u2019t fine. I just never asked you for anything. Because I learned a long time ago that in this family, there\u2019s one kind of girl who needs things and one kind who doesn\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n Mom\u2019s face crumpled.<\/p>\n \u201cI was fine because I had to be,\u201d I said. \u201cThat\u2019s not the same thing.\u201d<\/p>\n Chapter Eleven: The Part That Counts<\/p>\n We didn\u2019t eat the roast. Or the pie.<\/p>\n Brittany and I left about an hour later. Mom was crying at the kitchen sink. Dad walked us out to the car. He stood in the driveway next to his black Ram with his hands in his pockets.<\/p>\n \u201cI\u2019m going to make it right,\u201d he said. \u201cI don\u2019t know how yet. But I\u2019m going to.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cDad,\u201d I said. \u201cI don\u2019t want money.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI know you don\u2019t.\u201d He looked at the pontoon on its trailer under the gray tarp. \u201cThat\u2019s what makes it worse.\u201d<\/p>\n He sold the pontoon in May.<\/p>\n Thirty-one thousand dollars. To a man from Sioux City. He drove it up to Okoboji himself and handed over the keys.<\/p>\n Then he drove down to Corning and found me on my lunch break at the hospital. He handed me an envelope. Inside was a cashier\u2019s check for fifteen thousand, five hundred dollars.<\/p>\n And another one, made out to Brittany, for the same amount.<\/p>\n \u201cHalf the pontoon,\u201d he said. \u201cEach. It\u2019s not much.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cDad\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cIt\u2019s not half the eighty,\u201d he said. \u201cI can\u2019t ever give you that. But it\u2019s something.\u201d He looked at the hospital parking lot. \u201cAnd I\u2019m going to keep trying.\u201d<\/p>\n I didn\u2019t cash it for a month. I didn\u2019t know what to do with it.<\/p>\n Then I knew.<\/p>\n I drove out to Vern\u2019s place on a Saturday. Brittany came down from Ankeny and met me there. We sat at Vern\u2019s kitchen table and drank his terrible strong coffee.<\/p>\n \u201cVern,\u201d I said. \u201cBrit wants to buy in. Half the pond.\u201d<\/p>\n Vern looked at Brittany.<\/p>\n \u201cIs that right?\u201d he said.<\/p>\n \u201cIf Jess will have me,\u201d Brittany said.<\/p>\n So we did it right.<\/p>\n Margaret Pohl drew up a new deed. Jessica Ann Morgan and Brittany Lynn Morgan, as tenants in common. Equal shares. The same words Grandpa used in 2015.<\/p>\n Brittany paid me half of what I\u2019d paid for it. Four thousand, three hundred and seventy-five dollars. Plus half the survey. Out of her half of the pontoon money.<\/p>\n She signed the deed in Margaret\u2019s office above the bank in Creston. Then I signed it. Then we took it to the Taylor County Recorder\u2019s office in Bedford and they stamped it.<\/p>\n The lady behind the counter read our names.<\/p>\n \u201cSisters?\u201d she asked.<\/p>\n \u201cSisters,\u201d we said at the same time.<\/p>\n Mom didn\u2019t call for three months.<\/p>\n Then, in August, she showed up at the pond.<\/p>\n Brittany and I were at the end of the dock. It was a Sunday evening. We\u2019d started coming every Sunday that summer. Brit drove down from Ankeny. Tanner came sometimes. Kayla from work came once. Vern came down most weeks and sat on an overturned bucket on the bank, and didn\u2019t say ten words, and seemed perfectly happy.<\/p>\n That Sunday, we heard a car on Vern\u2019s field road. A door. Then somebody coming down through the pasture.<\/p>\n Mom stopped at the fence.<\/p>\n She was wearing jeans and her old gardening sneakers. She was holding a covered dish. She stood at the gate in Vern\u2019s new fence for a long time, looking at the pond.<\/p>\n At the cattails along the east bank, tall and green now, with brown heads starting to form. At the cottonwood. At the dock. At her two daughters at the end of it, holding cane poles.<\/p>\n Brittany looked at me.<\/p>\n I got up. I walked down the dock and up the bank to the gate.<\/p>\n \u201cHi, Mom,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n \u201cHi, Jessie.\u201d Her voice was small. She held out the dish. \u201cI made potato salad. I didn\u2019t know if you\u2019d want it.\u201d<\/p>\n I took it.<\/p>\n \u201cCan I come in?\u201d she asked.<\/p>\n I looked at her. My mother. Fifty-five years old. In her old gardening sneakers, standing at a gate in a cow pasture, holding her breath.<\/p>\n I thought about one picture from a disposable camera. A church skirt at the Taylor County Courthouse. A father who wouldn\u2019t come.<\/p>\n I opened the gate.<\/p>\n Chapter Twelve: Fish Together<\/p>\n She didn\u2019t come out on the dock that first time. She sat on the bank, on the overturned bucket Vern usually used. Vern took one look at her and went to get another bucket from his truck.<\/p>\n She didn\u2019t say much. Neither did we. We fished. The bobbers sat on the still water, red and white.<\/p>\n Around sunset, Brittany\u2019s bobber went under.<\/p>\n \u201cBrit!\u201d I said. \u201cBrit, you\u2019ve got one!\u201d<\/p>\n She yanked the cane pole up. A bluegill came flying out of the water. Fat and flapping, gold and green in the evening light. It swung in a big arc over the dock and landed in my lap.<\/p>\n Brittany screamed. I screamed. Vern laughed so hard he almost fell off his bucket.<\/p>\n And on the bank, my mother laughed. A real laugh. I hadn\u2019t heard it in two years.<\/p>\n Then I remembered the tackle box.<\/p>\n It was still sitting on the dock, where Vern set it down that first Saturday in April. I\u2019d brought it back every Sunday since. I hadn\u2019t opened it. Neither had Brittany.<\/p>\n We\u2019d both been waiting. I don\u2019t know for what.<\/p>\n I looked at Brittany. She looked at me. Then she looked up at the bank, at Mom.<\/p>\n \u201cMom,\u201d Brittany said. \u201cCome here. Please.\u201d<\/p>\n Mom came out on the dock. Slowly. Like she wasn\u2019t sure it would hold her.<\/p>\n She sat down between us. Not close. A little space on each side.<\/p>\n I pulled the tackle box over. Old green metal, rust around the hinges. I put my hand on the latch.<\/p>\n \u201cIt was Grandpa\u2019s,\u201d I told her. \u201cVern found it in the shed.\u201d<\/p>\n Mom looked at it. Her mouth trembled.<\/p>\n \u201cI know whose it is,\u201d she said. \u201cHe had it when I was a girl.\u201d<\/p>\n I opened the lid.<\/p>\n The top tray was full of what you\u2019d expect. Hooks. Sinkers. A spool of line. A rusty pair of needle-nose pliers. A jar of salmon eggs from about 1998.<\/p>\n I lifted out the tray.<\/p>\n Underneath, in the bottom of the box, there were three bobbers. Red and white. The old-fashioned kind, with the little spring clip on top.<\/p>\n Each one had a strip of white tape wrapped around it. With a name on it in Grandpa\u2019s handwriting.<\/p>\n JESS.<\/p>\n BRIT.<\/p>\n And the third one.<\/p>\n SHERYL.<\/p>\n Mom made a sound I\u2019d never heard her make.<\/p>\n She picked up the third bobber. She held it in her palm. Her hand was shaking so hard the little spring clip rattled.<\/p>\n Underneath the bobbers, folded in quarters, there was a piece of paper. Yellowed. Soft as cloth.<\/p>\n I unfolded it. I held it so all three of us could read it.<\/p>\n It was a note. In blue ink. In Grandpa\u2019s square, slanted farmer\u2019s handwriting. Dated at the top: June 1993.<\/p>\n Sheryl,<\/p>\n I should have been at the courthouse. I was a stubborn old fool and I\u2019ll be sorry for it the rest of my life.<\/p>\n I don\u2019t know how to say it to your face so I\u2019m putting it here, in the box, where I\u2019ll see it every time I go fishing. Maybe someday I\u2019ll get up the nerve to give it to you.<\/p>\n I made this bobber for you. Same as I\u2019ll make one for the baby. If it\u2019s a girl, I\u2019ll teach her to fish. If it\u2019s a boy, same thing.<\/p>\n The pond\u2019s for you too. It always was. I just never knew how to tell you.<\/p>\n Your dad<\/p>\n Nobody said anything.<\/p>\n The sun was down now. The sky over Vern\u2019s pasture was orange and pink. The frogs were starting up in the cattails. The ones I\u2019d planted on my knees in the mud.<\/p>\n Mom held the bobber with her name on it. She held the note. She sat on the end of the dock between her two daughters and cried. Not the way she\u2019d cried at the kitchen sink. Different. Quieter. Like something that had been frozen for thirty years was finally starting to thaw.<\/p>\n \u201cHe never gave it to me,\u201d she whispered. \u201cHe never said a word.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cHe couldn\u2019t,\u201d Brittany said softly. \u201cHe kept it in the box. For thirty years.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cEvery time he went fishing,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n After a long time, Mom wiped her eyes.<\/p>\n She looked at the bobber in her hand. Then at the cane poles lying on the dock. Mine and Brit\u2019s. JESS and BRIT on the tape.<\/p>\n \u201cIs there a third pole?\u201d she asked.<\/p>\n Brittany and I looked at each other.<\/p>\n From up on the bank, Vern cleared his throat. He stood up off his bucket. He walked back up the pasture toward his truck in the dusk without saying a word.<\/p>\n He came back five minutes later with a cane pole. Twelve feet long. Old. The line wrapped around the end.<\/p>\n \u201cFound it in the shed,\u201d he said. \u201cBehind the grease guns. Next to the tackle box.\u201d He handed it to Mom. \u201cFigured somebody\u2019d want it someday.\u201d<\/p>\n There was a strip of white tape around the bottom. The ink was faded almost to nothing. But you could still read it.<\/p>\n SHERYL.<\/p>\n I baited her hook. With a nightcrawler from the coffee can, the way Grandpa taught me. Mom clipped on her bobber. Her hands were still shaking.<\/p>\n Then the three of us sat at the end of the dock. Mom in the middle. Brit on one side, me on the other. Three cane poles out over the water. Three red and white bobbers sitting on the still, dark pond.<\/p>\n Nobody said anything. We didn\u2019t need to.<\/p>\n It\u2019s been four years now.<\/p>\n Brittany had a baby girl in March. Tanner\u2019s parents wanted to name her after his grandmother. Brittany named her Earla. Tanner didn\u2019t argue.<\/p>\n Dad paid off the rest of the operating note last fall. He still drives the black Ram. But he drives it out to the pond every Sunday, and parks it on Vern\u2019s field road, and sits on a bucket on the bank. He brings the nightcrawlers.<\/p>\n Vern is seventy-four. He still sits on the other side of the pond, on his own bucket, and doesn\u2019t say ten words. Last spring, he told me he\u2019d changed his will. He said he was leaving the rest of the eighty to Taylor County Conservation. With one condition. Nobody ever builds on the hill above the pond.<\/p>\n \u201cSo you girls always have the view,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n I\u2019m thirty-four now. Charge nurse on the medical floor at Rosary Hospital. I bought a little house in Corning two years ago, with a porch. I drive a car with a heater that works.<\/p>\n Last Sunday was the second Sunday in April. A spring evening. Golden light on the water.<\/p>\n The cattails along the east bank are as thick as a hedge now. Six feet tall. The redwing blackbirds nest in them every year. The cottonwood is leafing out.<\/p>\n I sat at the end of the dock in my green flannel and a ball cap. Brittany sat on one side of me with Earla in her lap, three weeks old, wrapped in a quilt Mom made. Mom sat on my other side.<\/p>\n Dad was on the bank with the coffee can. Vern was on his bucket across the water.<\/p>\n Earla was asleep. Brittany was holding her cane pole one-handed, the way Grandpa used to hold his while he poured coffee from a thermos.<\/p>\n Mom reached into the old green tackle box. Under the top tray. She took out something small and held it out to Brittany.<\/p>\n A new bobber. Red and white. With a strip of white tape wrapped around it.<\/p>\n On the tape, in Mom\u2019s handwriting, in blue ink, it said:<\/p>\n EARLA.<\/p>\n Brittany looked at it for a long time. Then she clipped it on the end of the line of her cane pole. Next to her own.<\/p>\n \u201cFor someday,\u201d Mom said.<\/p>\n The sun went down over Vern\u2019s pasture. The frogs started up in the cattails. Out on the dark water, four red and white bobbers sat perfectly still.<\/p>\n Nobody caught anything that night.<\/p>\n It didn\u2019t matter. 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